Fragile Friends

Oh these little rejections how they add up quickly
One small sideways look and I feel so ungood

Oh these little rejections how they seem so real to me
One forgotten birthday I'm all but cooked
How these little abandonments seem to sting so easily
I'm 13 again, am I 13 for good?

I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful
So unloved for someone so fine
I can feel so boring for someone so interesting
So ignorant for someone of sound mind

Oh these little protections how they fail to serve me
One forgotten phone call and I'm deflated
Oh these little defenses how they fail to comfort me
Your hand pulling away and I'm devastated

Oh these little projections how they keep springing from me
I jump my ship as I take it personally
Oh these little rejections how they disappear quickly
The moment I decide not to abandon me


- Alanis Morissette, "So Unsexy"

Restless Dark

It's okay in the day I'm staying busy

Got so sick of crying, so just lately
When I catch myself I do a 180
I stay up clean the house, at least I'm not drinking
Run around just so I don't have to think about thinking

That silent sense of content that everyone gets
Just disappears soon as the sun sets

If I was my heart, I'd rather be restless
The second I stop, the sleep catches up and I'm breathless
This ache in my chest, as my day is done now
The dark covers me and I cannot run now

- Amy Winehouse, "Wake Up Alone"

more than

You turned a page inside my heart
Brought the light when my world was so dark
I feel something I can't explain
You consumed me and took on my shame

Everything is gone that held me down
Your arms are around me
All the pain has left my selfish heart
And your love it surrounds me

You woke me up and made me learn to love more than myself
You took my hand before I knew there was more than myself

Eyes opened wide, I see Your face
For the first time I'm not in my way
A love like I have never known
A veil is lifted, now I'm not alone

Now that I know, I've finally found my home
This life is not my own
Whatever we go through
I will follow You


- Fireflight, "Myself"

Blanket

The sky was dark this morning
Not a bird in the trees
And silence hung suspicious and anxious
Like a blanket covered scream

You were gone
You were not there for me

And I cursed the sky and begged the sun to
Fall all over me

This life's not living, baby
Living ain't free
If I can't find my way back to me
Let the sun fall down over me


All my friends are searching
Quiet, desperately
Look into their eyes, you'll see the faithless crying
Save me, save me, save me

And what are they to feel?
And who are they to be?
And what am I to do with, do with me??

Just let the sun fall over me
This life's not living, baby
Living ain't free

If I can't find my way back to me
Let the sun fall down over me
Let the sun fall down
Until my eyes cry out
'Til my head is free from doubt
'Til my lungs sigh right out
'Til I'm wiser

- Fuel, "Sunburn"

ill

I've lived this day a thousand times, it won't go away
And all I can see are the eyes of people I will never be
And it makes me ill, the way You love me still

I can't decide if You're the missing piece buried in my mind
Immersed in sand, I try to reach, try to take Your hand
And it makes me ill, the way You love me still

- Aaron Sprinkle, "Solace"

When it's Over

Stripped away, my last desire
Nothing comes and nothing's sent away
Happiness I couldn't hire
Struggling from these thoughts inside my head

All that's safer falls from my favor
When it's over who will cry for me?

It's safe to say I don't desire
Everything you push inside my head
And I'll reject it until I'm dead

Now everything's trying to drag me down
But I'll rip the sky from the ground
So tell me now, who's my saving one
Jesus or a gun?

- Fuel, "Jesus or a Gun"

Lifeboat

Over the years your nature's way
Is turning wrongs into roles you play
Caught in a spell that's overcast
You gain perspective, it doesn't last
All of the time in this life
Can't loose the ties that blind you
They're new everyday, old as the fall

Every day, every way, every
Every cheap imitation
All of my imagination
Even my self-preservation
Is yours in time

And I was born in the mess of it all
Then You rescued me, rescued me
Lord, with a touch of Your hand
Another captive free again
Who else in heaven could do this but You?
You rescued me, rescued me
Lord, with a love out of mind
Oh, You know I love it when
Everyday I am rescued again

- Newsboys, "Rescue"

Unknown

You are the author of knowledge
You can redeem what's been done
You hold the present and all that's to come
Until your everlasting kingdom

Lord, I don't know where all this is going
Or how it all works out
Lead me to peace that is past understanding
A peace beyond all doubt

You are the God of tomorrow
Turning the darkness to dawn
Lifting the hopeless with hope to go on
You are the rock of all salvation


- Newsboys, "Lord (I Don't Know)"

Church and Religion

Evil fell from your pretty mouth
Wrapped in your classic voice
Angelic in your syntax
Demonic in your motive
Your pretty eyes don’t know that
The water flowing from this well isn’t fresh

Demolish all that sets you up against your rising up
Confessing all that’s broken, and watch the healing come
Spread out your open hands
Admit you’ve held them shut
Turn all the way around
Be swept away by this

Time for surrender
Spread out your open hands
And He will raise you up
Confessing all that’s broken
And watch the healing come
Spread out your open hands
Admit you’ve held them shut
Be swept away by this

Your clothes are smooth and spotless
The air is putrid sewage
Downwind of your pressed church clothes
Your eyes are black and empty
Your deeds are just for showing
How big and bright your fake smile glows

I see you moving and they're getting scared
Their eyes are focusing on something else
You're staring at me and I stare at you
I rage against everything that you do

See them surrender
Spread out your open hands
And He will raise you up
Confessing all that’s broken
Look at the healing come
Spread out your open hands
Admit you’ve held them shut
Be swept away by this

Get this hell out out of my way
There’s nothing more that you can say so
Get this hell out, get this hell out out, out of my way
So get this hell out, get this hell out out out!

We spread our open hands
And He is rising up
Repairing all that broken
Look at the healing come
We spread our open hands
Forgiveness holds them up
We’re swept away by this

- Flyleaf, "Swept Away"

So I'm nothing
You took something from me
Now you disappear
You're right where I want you
You said you wanted it, alright

No! It's not alright!
I'm so cold, so cold

NO! NO WAY!

- Kittie, "Charlotte"