Illude

You'll rescue me right?
In the exact same way they never did..
I'll be happy right?
When your healing powers kick in

You'll complete me right?
Then my life can finally begin
I'll be worthy right?
Only when you realize the gem I am?

But this won't work now the way it once did
And I won't keep it up, even though I would love to
Once I know who I'm not, then I'll know who I am
But I know I won't keep on playing the victim

These precious illusions in my head did not let me down
When I was defenseless
And parting with them is like parting with invisible best friends

But this won't work as well as the way it once did
Cuz I want to decide between survival and bliss
And though I know who I'm not, I still don't know who I am
But I know I won't keep on playing the victim

I've spent so long firmly looking outside me
I've spent so much time living in survival mode

These precious illusions in my head did not let me down when I was a kid
And parting with them is like parting with a childhood best friend






- Alanis Morissette, "Precious Illusions"